New directions arrive.

Good conversation with Ellyne on Wednesday night. We hardly meet, but when we do, it’s like catching up with an old soul, someone who has been there before; she has the depth I don’t often find in others around me. It’s easy to let go and tell her everything. Doubts (what to do next, where will I go) and desire (my red apple and my green apple, not quite bitten yet) dissolve quickly.

We discuss weight loss (both of us), my body image disorder (yes, I’m convinced of it, and this makes me happy somehow, to identify and capture the creature into a place I can control and conquer), my obsession with fitness of late (weight training and BodyBalance classes), getting older and learning some things, finally.

It’s a peaceful time. (It also helped somewhat, when we adjourned to Starbucks later, that her sister Dina said I had nice, kind face. These days I take what I can get, yes.)

More tomorrow, promise.

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Current Mood: Lighter.
Current Music: Frou Frou - Let Go