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1. Forever comes to an end
I do not know how this goes
It seems like time to divide
We go our own ways, walk different roads
We’ll never be just friends again
Never was in the first place
And was all this time a waste
I think the lament made more sense
Before I met you
I thought you were the one
You were pretty damned sure I was too
But I guess two people can be wrong
Two can stay together too long
It’s time to break; time to make
Forever come to an end.

2. Enough
I’ve seen the tears
I’ve lent my chest
Wrapped myself round
You through this mess.

You ask me why
This has to be
But my reply’s
Lost in your pleas.

Learn to be strong
Don’t think too much
Or remember
When still we touched.

3. Red
It seems I won’t let go of this anger, this very bitter hate. I know it some ways it is eating away at me, hurting me when the hurting should have stopped. I mean, that was the whole point of it, wasn’t it? To stop hurting? It stopped the guilt, for sure.

But then came the anger. This is being hurt. It is just being angry, pure and simple. It is about wanting to scream, to harm, to mutilate. I want to feel flesh bruising under my hands, blood spilling and streaming out like black wedding ribbons, tears like stone confetti. It was the tears that got me in the first place. I was so soft and stupid; now I just feel deceived.

Have you ever considered ramming someone’s face in? Have you ever wondered how it would feel? Don’t you feel sick of trying to be good, of being as good as you could, cos that’s the way you ought be, the way everyone tells you to, the way everyone says you should? No one asked me to listen, but even now, I fear I am still trying to be good.

It would feel so good to hurt someone right now.

4. The One with the Golden Eyes
And at the same time, you can never really escape. You move again, you shift, get out of your house, drive and breathe other people in. And then your eyes catch sight of something beautiful, someone that you could and do desire. It’s just an instant, but when you realise you want once more, that you want some more of this, you know you will go on.

Now, how shall you work having some coffee together into the conversation?

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Current Mood: Moved on.
Current Music:

• Chris Isaak – Baby Did A Bad Bad Thing
• Chris Isaak – Go Walking Down There
• Chris Isaak – The End of Everything