I have been receiving emails as usual these past few days but I haven’t been answering them. Just wanted to see if I could let go of it if I wanted to. I don’t want to be too tied down with anything.

I don’t want to be too deep in anything that I can see what’s going on outside till after, till it’s too late.

It’s the old cliché, “I want to live in the now.” Well, I do, and it’s not as easy as it seems. Not for me.

I got my first ten rolls of film back as photos yesterday (the eleventh still in the camera, half-used). Not as bad as I thought though I still haven’t improved much. It has been a crazy month for me.

But I can live like that everyday, can I? Not with that intensity. The last time I tried, I just petered off… Now I’m gonna take things easy and concentrate. I’ve much less to worry about, especially I know I have family and friends who truly support me.

I’ll try not to let us down.

I’ll open my eyes now, never after.

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